[He yanks his hand away and picks up the pace again. It's warm out, yet he crosses his arms and rubs his shoulders.] He thinks I forgive you too easily. That's just stupid.
... I guess you do, sometimes. I mean. Like with Yellow and stuff, for the most recent. You just let it drop and you weren't angry or anything like I thought you'd be.
Dude, it was not right of me to... [take off without them for what seemed like revenge over a cuestick] It was a dumb reason that she got me with. I still should've taken you and Crys with me. I broke my promise to you about not goin' near her too. And then I told her we were goin' out like that just because I could and we are.
[when he's talking he's kind of realizing how much of an ass he's been so far just today and that something is wrong with silver not being angry at him even slightly angry]
Why should you? You're the one that got all messed up. I could barely do anything to help you. You told me to wait and I didn't. Maybe you really could've taken down Yellow.
Maybe I could've, but then what? I still would've been messed up. You were doin' what you thought was right and that's nothin' to blame yourself over. [even if yellow would've probably been burnt pretty badly herself, gold was thinking that it'd have to be ended on the first move and if it wasn't then--]
I would've come out a lot worse if she got over my first attack. I probably wouldn't even be talkin' to you right now.
[can he hold your hand again he'll be gentle this time]
If I was gonna dump you then I wouldn't have come after you. You're not just the guy I'm dating, you know, you're my bud too. My friend. And even if this doesn't work out or whatever I'm not gonna leave you alone. You're stuck with me and Crys no matter what. Don't write me off like that.
but action's cheap too if it's the same thing over and over again
so he's gonna take a page from boobro's book and try to pull silver into his arms for a hug they're basically the same height so silver can reaaally look into gold's eyes
he is not sure if this is how he should go about things but he's gonna give it a shot]
... I used to think that you datin' me was just so it'd be easier to get away from your family. Kind of an excuse. Sorta. You'd have a reason to be out and about and around me. Or that it wouldn't matter when we got back 'cause you'd still be the heir and havin' to take care of a bunch of people under you. And it just feels like... Shit. It feels like you're just takin' what you're gettin' and you're okay with that. You're a person too, Silver. You've got a backbone. I've seen it and wanted to kiss it. Use it. If I do somethin' that ain't sitting well with you tell me.
...I started dating you because I wanted to date you. I'd still pick my family over you if that was all there was to it.
[He almost wants to let go for fear that he'll start throwing up, but he knows he's just upset. ...His stomach is empty anyway.]
I didn't want to leave Team Rocket because of any of you. I left because I wanted to leave. Because Team Rocket is cruel and wrong. You just happened to be the one to show me the better thing to do. The other option. Something that's not just closing my eyes to all of it in an office desk.
I'm not sayin' they're the same things, I know they're not. I said as much to Yellow's face, right? [right, he knows he did that time. he'll pet his head too]
Did you think I was datin' you just to make you quit? That since I got what I wanted I'd just leave you? [scoff] What kinda man you take me for, huh? I know I screw up but I ain't like that. I'm not heartless, and I like you a lot. I mean, I started datin' you 'cause I wanted to date you, too, so, I mean. You know. That. I'm gonna shut up.
[that's embarrassing to say out loud but it's true]
You promised me that we'll be in it together next time, right? It's too late to get mad now, but if you break that promise I'm really gonna be steamed.
[Because next time, he won't be upset or scared or insecure because he just lost his family.]
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He slows down, but he doesn't stop or turn his head.]
Yeah? What's up?
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... though now that he's here he is actually not sure what to say about it]
Why the hell did you kiss him? [NO WRONG THING GOLD PLEASE]
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[...] I don't know. I'm sorry.
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but it's not as kind as it should be, he's mad at things and it's going to hurt]
Bullshit. What kinda point were you tryin' to prove? That he wasn't like me, right? Why?
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[He yanks his hand away and picks up the pace again. It's warm out, yet he crosses his arms and rubs his shoulders.] He thinks I forgive you too easily. That's just stupid.
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huh
right after silver come back]
... I guess you do, sometimes. I mean. Like with Yellow and stuff, for the most recent. You just let it drop and you weren't angry or anything like I thought you'd be.
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Because you're right. I'm not gonna hold it against you.
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Dude, it was not right of me to... [take off without them for what seemed like revenge over a cuestick] It was a dumb reason that she got me with. I still should've taken you and Crys with me. I broke my promise to you about not goin' near her too. And then I told her we were goin' out like that just because I could and we are.
[when he's talking he's kind of realizing how much of an ass he's been so far just today and that something is wrong with silver not being angry at him even slightly angry]
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I would've come out a lot worse if she got over my first attack. I probably wouldn't even be talkin' to you right now.
[can he hold your hand again he'll be gentle this time]
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[...No. No buts. He's got a death grip on Gold's hand this time, but he still refuses to look at him.]
I don't want to be mad at you, okay? I don't want to be alone just because I'm stupid and angry.
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You're not alone right now, are you?
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[Just scared. Really really scared. He tries to put on a brave face.]
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though he'll try to be gentle sounding]
If I was gonna dump you then I wouldn't have come after you. You're not just the guy I'm dating, you know, you're my bud too. My friend. And even if this doesn't work out or whatever I'm not gonna leave you alone. You're stuck with me and Crys no matter what. Don't write me off like that.
[hasn't he said that before?]
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[It's gonna take more than hearing it once or twice to really let it sink in.]
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but action's cheap too if it's the same thing over and over again
so he's gonna take a page from boobro's book and try to pull silver into his arms for a hug they're basically the same height so silver can reaaally look into gold's eyes
he is not sure if this is how he should go about things but he's gonna give it a shot]
... I used to think that you datin' me was just so it'd be easier to get away from your family. Kind of an excuse. Sorta. You'd have a reason to be out and about and around me. Or that it wouldn't matter when we got back 'cause you'd still be the heir and havin' to take care of a bunch of people under you. And it just feels like... Shit. It feels like you're just takin' what you're gettin' and you're okay with that. You're a person too, Silver. You've got a backbone. I've seen it and wanted to kiss it. Use it. If I do somethin' that ain't sitting well with you tell me.
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[He almost wants to let go for fear that he'll start throwing up, but he knows he's just upset. ...His stomach is empty anyway.]
I didn't want to leave Team Rocket because of any of you. I left because I wanted to leave. Because Team Rocket is cruel and wrong. You just happened to be the one to show me the better thing to do. The other option. Something that's not just closing my eyes to all of it in an office desk.
Don't mix those two up.
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I've got a backbone as long as I've got something to fall back on. On my own, I'm a spineless coward.
I lost my family, my grunts, my office, my life... Everything. I've got you, Crys, my Pokémon, and the clothes on my back. [...And Blue. Maybe. Hopefully. One day...]
I should be mad, but I just don't want to be, okay? Maybe tomorrow. [And now just
excuse him while he buries his face in Gold thank you]
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Did you think I was datin' you just to make you quit? That since I got what I wanted I'd just leave you? [scoff] What kinda man you take me for, huh? I know I screw up but I ain't like that. I'm not heartless, and I like you a lot. I mean, I started datin' you 'cause I wanted to date you, too, so, I mean. You know. That. I'm gonna shut up.
[that's embarrassing to say out loud but it's true]
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You promised me that we'll be in it together next time, right? It's too late to get mad now, but if you break that promise I'm really gonna be steamed.
[Because next time, he won't be upset or scared or insecure because he just lost his family.]
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